Torn

So, Justin's last day in the Navy will be March 2. Now we have to decide if we are going to stay here or go back to Indiana.

At first it was go straight home. Then is was stay here. 90/10 as Justin would say. Now it's about a 50/50. If whatever is going to happen, I wish it would just happen. I'm tired of the emotional roller coaster. This is a really big deal, and I my reasons for staying or going are WAY off of the way Justin thinks, which make it that more frustrating.

I'm sure I'll have a lot more to write on this subject much later.

It's official....

....I'm the crazy one.

I took Gabriel to his therapy appointment as part of the solution to dealing with his ADHD. Most of the conversation was about me. I was told my stress levels are to high. (DUH!) I have a control problem, as in, I don't feel like I have control over anything (hence the stress), which cause my OCD tendencies. How about that. She suggested a therapist for me so I can get meds to help with my stress. Since my kids attitudes reflect my attitude, it is best to work on me first. That was exactly how she put it.

So, I'm "on call" to go in if they have a cancellation for the next couple of weeks, and we start family sessions next month. I have to call the other....well lets just call it what it is......shrink to get my appointment so I can be medicated.

So there you have it. As my husband would say I am a nut job! Haha!! As if we didn't know that already!! At least I'm never boring!!!

Catching you up on some randomness....

We survived the holidays!!

We got to go home for Thanksgiving. It was really great being around the family. The drive was loooong but we got to stay a whole week so we had a good break in between trips.

Christmas was really great!! I was worried about giving the kids a good Christmas, but we got a very wonderful gift from a VERY good friend of ours and the blessing was just what we needed!! We had friends over for dinner and the food was PERFECT if I do say so myself! ;)
New Years was just another day. Justin was in bed early, Faith crashed so Gabe, Ashley and I was up to watch the ball drop.

We may finally have a handle on Gabriel's behavior. He has been diagnosed as ADHD. We tried addoral (i know that's not how you spell it) but it made him really moody and depressed. So, the doc put him on Concerta. So far so good. He is still moody when he gets home from school, but i think it's just because he's tired. He will start counseling as soon as I remember to call and make the appointment.

Justin will be getting out of the military. Depends on how long it takes the paper work to go through, but we could be going home by March. We'll see. There is still a possibility that the Navy will keep him so now we just hurry up and wait.

I'll keep you posted.....

Today.....

Today, one of my very best friends lost her only daughter. Anna was 16 years old and had a history of seizures.
This morning, her last seizure stopped her heart, and the doctors couldn't get it started again.
Anna was a beautiful, loving, and very soft hearted young lady. She never held a grudge, no matter how many times you could have wronged her, but she would definitely tell you about it first!
I've heard it said that young kids make very good judge of characters, and the babies LOVED her!! My 3 year old was one of them. Anna hung the sun, moon, and stars as far as Faith was concerned. Never in my life had I heard of a 16 year old spending the night with a 3 year old without being paid to babysit, but that was Anna. I remember hearing them whisper, way past your average 3 year old's bedtime, like somewhere in time their 2 ages had met in the middle and they were best friends talking about there day or what they were going to do in the morning. I always got to sleep in when Anna was over because she got up with Faith. They would sit and watch cartoons and eat their cereal or toast or whatever it was the Faith talked Anna into having.
Even when Faith was in one of her moods, Anna could always make her laugh and smile. She could do that with almost any of the kids I saw her with. And if she couldn't make them happy she would love on them until they felt better. She would always ask Faith, "what's your problem?" in a funny voice,and poke fingers at her belly until Faith burst into laughter, and it became a joke that they would laugh about for ever. EVERY Friday night after life group Anna and Faith would scheme together how they were going to talk Rachael and I into letting Anna stay the night. Most of the time it was with a fair trade that Rachael would take Gabriel and I would keep Anna. Girls against boys, that's how the game was played, but everyone was happy with the out come.
Even if someone didn't know Anna, they knew of her. She had a hop it her step and the happiness that resonated from her could not be ignored. She was so animated and she wore her heart on her sleeve. A lot of people were affected by Anna, and she will be greatly missed by every single one of them!! I am one at the top of that list!

My son.........

I was finally called into Gabriel's classroom for a conference with his teacher, Mrs. Ames. I expected it way before now.
It has finally come time to have him tested for ADHD. Considering he's got it coming at him from both sides of the family tree, I'm not surprised AT ALL!!
So, I have filled out my survey, Mrs. Ames will fill out hers this weekend, and I'll talk to the counselor hopefully on Monday. Tuesday I'll get him into the Doctor and, Lord help us, he'll have meds by Tuesday evening. After the last couples weeks I've had with him, I need some kind of help. He never sits still , and he never shuts up. He gets really upset, and really angry, really fast!! I feel bad for him because he can't control himself, and he feels really bad when he realizes what has happened.
I want him to be able to function like a normal kid. He is a sweet boy and I hope we can find a way for him to be himself again.

Time will tell....

Elections are over....Thank heavens!! Barrack Obama will be our president for the next 4 years. Not my choice, but he is the man that has been chosen.

Only time will tell if the changes that he promised will come, or if he is just another liar.

How long will we wait until our service men our brought home? What will our taxes look like after he is in office? Is he the man that was needed to pull our country out of debt? Will he give the government back to the people? Will we remain "One nation under God," or one nation under government?

I know God has a plan. I pray that I remember to trust that plan and remember that he is in control. God Bless America! Please!?!

election....

I know everyone has there own opinion on who would make the better president, but it's not all about money people!! Promises are made and promises are broken! The real truth is behind where the candidates stand behind the issues! 3 that really stand out to me are; Obama's support of partial birth abortions ( I dare you to look it up...if you have the stomach for it) and the fact that he can't seem to decide on what religion he is. I guess it depends on who's asking! I have gay friends, and I love them but according to God's law...one MAN and one Woman are to be married.

I will continue to pray for whoever becomes our next president, because it's what I'm supposed to do. And I remember every time I do that it is God that is in control. Everything happens according to his plan. He said it and I believe it! That is all I have to do.